Depressing Music

As peppy and "can-do" as I am I love depressing music and introspective music (not always the same thing). My newest favorite is Cycling Trivialities by Jose Gonzalez. He's from Sweden, and he's named Jose. Right there you know the music is going to be phenomenal, filled with insight. And the song is 8 minutes long. Check out his myspace and listen to the song. Down The Line is also excellent.

http://www.myspace.com/josegonzalez

But why, why do I love this kind of music? Because I got a lot going on underneath this chipper exterior. I got turmoil and rancor. This type of music feeds that part of me. But I am also lucky that I am mesmerized by sunsets/sunrises, or feel complete peace listening to birds chirp, or know that there can be nothing wrong in the world while I watch my dog sleep. Which is why I also like High School Musical. Feed the beast people!

OSMoSis

design and craft by Michelle Jiles

OSMoSis - absorb the beauty

The Bri - garnet Swarovski crystals and light yellow glass beads, gun metal 24g wire, 3 inches



Smoke Gets in Your Ears - glass beads, silver plated 24g wire

Coveting

I have been coveting two bags by Moop. The Porter and The Tote.
The Porter
The Tote

Of course I bought them. I have a bag affinity. I like to be able to put my life into a bag and carry it with me wherever I go. I like to have the essentials (mini umbrella, gum, mirror, notebook, blister block) and the incidentals (book, newspaper, scarf). I think this is because I always wanted to be a hobo. To be able to pick up and take off whenever you wanted always appealed to me. And it is so much easier in the electronic age (at least for me if I were to become a hobo) because I could access everything and everyone from any library/coffee shop in any major city. Yeah, being a hobo would be great. Maybe this bags will finally push me to it.

Eternal Question

How do you tell the difference between what you want and what you are suppose to want?

Just thinking about the question pushes me toward the first and shun the later.

It's a good feeling.

The truly lucky are the ones who want what they are suppose to. Lucky, yes, happy, yes, interesting, no. If you want what you are suppose to, you want was is predictable. It is hard to be unpredictable, even dangerous sometimes, but very interesting, yes.

Change

This cartoon seems to sum up what change really means to people. The last panel is of the little cat saying "That's a change I can believe in!" It is not change for the greater good, it is not change for change sake, it is change that makes the world look more like them. Certainly the presidential election was astounding, and the conditions were right where change for change's sake took hold. But long term change, no. It is not that I am a pessimist or think that tolerance of the other is flighty. It is more that people a lot of people have trouble with the outsider, the "that which is not me". They (and I include myself in this category for some situations) cannot begin to think that the world would work, or think, or act in a manner that was not theirs. It is alien, it is weird. This cartoon also gives a bit of room, because while the little dog is a bit incredulous and surprised at the idea of a cat in the white house, in the last panel he is not angry. He is listening. That is a change I can believe in.

Media, Death

Just a quick post to say: WTF media!?!??!

Guinea may or may not be going through a coup. The media made this statement about the death of dictator/President Conte:

"The cause of his death is unknown, but Mr Conte, 74, was a chain-smoker and diabetic who is also believed to have suffered from leukemia."

He was 74! He was a chain-smoker! He was diabetic! He might have had leukemia. Gee, I wonder what he died from? WTF?!?!?!??!

Stupid media.

Christmas Cards

I have never been much on christmas cards. My family never did them, they lamented and felt awful as if they were personally responsible for a holiday ruined, but still never really bought or sent out cards. Last year I decided that I would send New Years cards. Not super traditional but still having some merriment of the season. I still have them, unopened in their original package. Tough to make an "8" look like a "9" without having color match white out.

I am more inclined to get Kwanzaa or Hannakah cards I think then traditional christmas cards. Or maybe I should make my own cards, been known to do that, and solve all my worries. Something like, "I hope you don't have another Donner Party experience this year. Enjoy your holiday travels." Something like that. Or, "Hey, have a good one." Simple but with feeling. And this card could be sent out any time - January, February, May!

But what this all really gets back to is my skewed sense of time. I am one of those time flies people and cannot remember if something happened 1-month or 4-months ago unless I know a specific date and have a calendar handy. It was not until yesterday that I realized how close christmas is. I was thinking it was like, 2 or 3 weeks away. Not true, like a week away. So me remembering that christmas is coming or that I need to send out cards, now that would be a miracle.